Complaining..Thinking..Depressed..

So sometimes I really begin to believe life is pointless. I mean, with all the work and effort we put in our studies and social life, trying to avoid rumours at school, trying to avoid the cliched popular groups, the end of the day will just bring another one. What's the point in trying to impress? Trying to fit in? Trying to keep out of everyone's way? There's no point and that's exactly my POINT, so really is there a point? We go about life wanting to accomplish what we believe we want, but it's only until we lose what we have that we know we want it - but then there's no going to the darkness and reaching for it. What's the POINT? You'll only end up losing it again. And here I am rambling on about even i don't know what, so how will you understand? I wake up each morning with WHAT to look forward to? Again, trying to fit in? Trying to impress people? Trying to keep out of everyone's way? What's the difference if we just leave life behind? Who will notice were missing? People like us aren't noticed enough so why not just up and leave? Start a new life? Become a new person? But once again, what's the POINT when inside you know who you really are? You can't run away from it. It's just not too often people like us are acknowledged and noticed. No, it's the cliched populars. And here i wonder why..because they're pretty? Because they're cool? Because they're not like us? People don't see behind the outter surface, frankly they're blind to it. So what happens now..and what was the POINT of letting this all out? Nothings going to change. Life does not change.

Kristen Stewart's Backup Plan

Who knew K-Stew was so…flexible? While filming Welcome to the Rileys, the starlet learned to pole dance and was apparently so good an LA strip club offered her a full-time job. The real winner here? R-Patz.

..Thoughts..

There's this guy, much the same as eveyone. Except for the fact that he's popular - outstandingly handsome -  EVERYTHING. I can't talk to him because i'm too nervous and he'll think i'm queer. Oh and i forgot to mention,, he kinda has a girlfriend..? Can you understand my life now? Or MyLifeOrNot anyway. I always fall for the wrong guys and this time round i don't even know if i like this guy..that's the thing. Maybe i'm just too desparate to find someone to love me when even if they do i know i'm not going to act on it. I see everyone - all my friends - classmates - randoms - with their boyfriends and it bugs me that maybe one day will i ever find my prince? or vampyre? haha KIDDING, really. Well as you can see my thoughts are pretty screwed so i'll leave you get on with your lifes which are undoubtfully much more interesting then mine :)